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Ruzana
Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 10:05 AM

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THAT'S ALL I EVER THINK ABOUT.


On bended knees
Saturday, December 26, 2009 @ 5:15 PM

I'm sorry for EVERYTHING.
I know I have disappoint you.
I'm truly sorry for letting you down.
But you know what,
I promise to myself and you that I will change into better.
I won't repeat my mistake.
I will learn from my mistake.
But I need you to trust and believe in me.
Because I will prove it to you.
YES I WILL.
I SWEAR TO GOD THAT I WILL STOP SMOKING.
I SWEAR TO GOD THAT I WILL STOP DRINKING.
I SWEAR TO GOD THAT I WILL STOP TAKING HARMFUL STUFF.
But will you give me one last chance?

I need you
Saturday, December 12, 2009 @ 6:23 PM

I have lost you.
Each day passed, I struggled to breathe.
Life has been meaningless.
Without any directions or goals.
My dreams are shattered.
I couldn't go on with my life.
It's so hard to live my life like this. 
I need you.
I need your air.
I need your voice.
I need your smile.
I need your love.
Is it too much to ask?
I want to be with you again.
I want to be cuddled by you again.
I want to be told, "I swear I love you very very much like kwazee" by you again.
I miss talking about our future together.
I miss talking about growing old together.
I miss everything about you, Ruzana.

Always on my mind
Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 4:58 PM

Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
 Little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time
But you were always on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine
If I made you feel second best
Girl, I'm sorry I was blind
But you were always on my mind

Tell me
Tell me that your sweet love hasn't died
Give me
Give me one more chance to keep you satisfied 
You were always on my mind.
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I promise I'll do better if you give me the chance.

Hold my hands.
Thursday, December 10, 2009 @ 7:16 PM

The world keeps changing.
People keep changing.
Everything is changing.
But one thing I don't see any change at all.
My love to you.
Nothing is gonna heal me except for your love.
Time isn't a great healer.
It makes me sick and weak when each day pass by.
Unfortunately, all I can give you is this imperfect heart of mine.
That beats only for you.
I breathe your air. 
It's as if I worship you.
I do.
Because you are the girl of my dream.
I wish I could have a future with you. 
People asked, do I get tired of typing these?
My answer is no.
It worth my time. 
Let me hold your hands.
I will shower you with love.
The love you couldn't imagined.
I just need you to trust me on this one.
I promise we will go to Bora Bora Island one day.
I will take care of you each every single day in every single way.
We need each other.
We are meant to be together.
Please take my hand.
I will give you an adventure in life.
We will go through life together.
Don't worry.
If you fall, I'll be the one who catch you.
I'll be your superhero.
I'll be your everything.


I am your knight in shining armour.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 @ 5:39 PM

If you said you are lost,
then take my hand.
If you said you need directions,
then take my hand and I'll lead you to your happiness.
If you said you need me,
tell me and I'll be there for you right away.
If you said you have lost your heart and smile,
then I promise I will search for your heart and make you the happiest girl ever.
Only if you let me.
Only if you give me the chance.
Only if you still love me.
Because I never stop loving you.
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